I’M ASHAMED OF MYSELF
-A Short Story by Onu Humblemakas Amaka
I am ashamed of myself.
Don’t be so quick to judge me, I couldn’t help the situation.
This is my story.
Since we relocated to Enugu State, Nigeria as a result of my Dad’s transfer, I’ve always been on my own. I had promised myself not to have anything to do with any guy till a man that was serious for marriage came my way.
I wrote my JAMB in 2015. So I thought I would be ready for marriage after my graduation even though The guys in my area never let me be.
They would usually harass me with questions whenever I was out on the street on an errand or while coming back from school. I wasn’t insultive previously, but when it started getting out of hand, I began calling them names as a result of the increasing harassment.
At first, I told a couple of them that I did’t want them – that they should let me be. But all to no avail, they kept trooping.
During my Final Year, I was all set to have a relationship with someone I can build a future with — an already-made man.
“Luckily”, handsome Frank came forth and wooed me.
I Immediately fell for him, he started asking for my hand in marriage. I hesitated for a while but he insisted that he wants two us to wed so that we could go back to the USA together.
He came to my family and introduced himself.
I told my parents that I loved him and that I was ready to spend my lifetime with him.
They gave their consent. Then we began preparing for marriage.
At this point, Frank gained full access to my precious body and we became sexual partners. Day by day, we engaged in foreplay to fondling my breasts till Frank deflowered me. With his chisel, he dug my Vagina deep and round in the name of teaching me new styles that we shall enjoy within marriage.
At the end of it all, I was infected with Sexually Transmitted Disease. My Vagina started oozing out slimy brown liquid with foul smell. This forced me to change six pads daily, wore perfumes minute after minute and hid indoors for two weeks. I couldn’t tell my people because they were aware Frank wanted to marry me.
Three weeks after Frank shattered my life, he texted me: “I have traveled back to the US. I have won a prize placed on you. All my Friends said that you were untouchable, unapproachable and restricted like a Military Zone. So they bet on who would be the first guy to break your line of defense and girl, I did.
Yes I did and that was all I needed from you. You are just my bet. And there was nothing so special about you in the first place”.
I was in utter shock! I screamed aloud like a mad dog, the iPhone gift my elder brother had just sent me last December smashed on the tiles and my eyes blurred into darkness.
When I jerked up on the bed at emergency room in National Hospital, Enugu State, Nigeria, I was totally ashamed of myself seeing my parents, siblings and relatives circled around me, I was in tears, My virginity, my pride and my ego all vanished like yesterday.
-Story Written by Onuh Humble Makas Amaka & Displayed on Frambuk Stores Blog Page